…I make a sour face.
For those of you who are new to the blog, let me start from the beginning. A few weeks before my half ironman I did a Wednesday long run on the treadmill (13.1 miles). After my run, I stopped by the grocery store next door to pick up a few things.
While I was walking around, I took a funny step and felt a strange twinge in my foot. Yes, apparently I can run 13.1 miles on a treadmill without getting hurt, but am incapable of walking around the grocery store. Story of my life. Anyway, my foot hurt a lot, and I was limping around, but I figured it was just a ‘tweak’ and would be gone the next day. But it was not gone the next day…or the next. I took a few days off of running and the pain eventually went away. I thought my foot was fine, but the pain came back during my mud run that Saturday.
I went to the general doctor that week, and she said she thought it was plantar faciitis. However, that diagnosis never quite sat right with me, because all of the descriptions said that the pain usually lessened or went away as you kept going, but mine got worse. Regardless, I followed the doctor’s instructions and took the last week and a half before my half ironman off from running, and just focused on biking, swimming, and aqua-jogging.
During the half ironman, my foot felt good through the swim, bike, and the first six-ish miles of the race, but around mile six or seven the pain started to come back. I made it through the race, but was in a pretty good amount of pain again.
I took a couple more weeks off of running after the half ironman, but while the pain was better it was still not gone completely, so I finally asked my doctor to let me see the podiatrist.
Well, the podiatrist said that I sprained my foot, and that it may take up to THREE MONTHS to heal completely. Cue my tears.
Okay, so I didn’t really cry, but I have been pretty upset. No running for months?? No swimming?? No biking?? (Okay so I have been biking a couple of times…it’s the only exercise I can do that doesn’t seem to hurt my foot, because the bike shoe is hard plastic on the bottom and keeps my foot from stretching out on the bottom, which is when the pain comes).
I know a lot of my blogger friends have been dealing with injuries lately, and have talked about working on realizing they have an identity outside of running. I never thought of myself as someone that would have that problem, but all of a sudden I find myself feeling lost.
What am I going to do if I can’t get my normal workouts in? How can I go a few months without racing? What will my blog readers think if I am not blogging about a lot of workouts and races?
Wednesday was national runner’s day, and it killed me to read about everyone going for runs and signing up for races. I had a packed spring running schedule and loved it, and was looking forward to packing the summer and fall, too. Today is a gorgeous seventy-degree day, and it’s killing me not to be able to go out for a run.
After a lot of deliberation and numerous conversations with my best friend, I had also decided to sign up for a September marathon in hopes of earning a qualifying time for the Boston Marathon before the qualifying times get faster next year. (I can’t believe I just admitted that goal out loud!:)
But now, it looks like a September marathon is not in the cards. I am signed up for a 5k tomorrow morning that I am not going to run, and I am probably not going to be able to run the 5k I am signed up for in July, either.
Today I went and picked up my race packet because the store was right by my house and I figured if I paid the race entry fee I might as well get my shirt and free stuff. (Although I am still debating whether I would feel “right” wearing the shirt. If it were a half or full marathon I would definitely not wear it, but a local 5k is questionably okay in my mind.)
I know this is not the end of the world, and everyone has to deal with injuries in their running careers, but this is the first time I will have not completed a race I signed up for, and the first time I’ve had to sit out for months at a time. I’m not going to lie to you and say I have figured out how to turn my lemons into lemonade, because honestly right now I am still feeling pretty upset about the fact that I can’t run!
Sorry, I am sure I will eventually come to accept my situation and gain a more positive outlook on it, but for now I’m just feeling a little bit…sour.
Would you wear the race t-shirt? It’s cotton, so I would probably only wear it as a pajama shirt anyway.
Have you had to sit out for long periods of time due to injuries? What did you tell yourself to get through it?